nobody likes a fun hater.

it was weird celebrating easter this year.

i pulled my ass out of bed to go to church, more so because i felt guilty if i didn't go. then i realized i've gone back to being a "C&E" churchgoer (christmas and easter). but whatever, i went. and it was nice. i went to parkway instead of ccv for numerous reasons and i enjoyed as much as i probably would have enjoyed any church service. doug was falling asleep and i rolled my eyes maybe only a few times but all in all, it was nice.

but it was weird because i'm at the point where i WANT to believe that the story of jesus is true in the sense that he died for the sins of the world and then rose from the grave, but i'm not sure if i do. not sure if moses really parted the red sea, or if he resembled charlton heston at all. so instead of prayers of thanks it was like, if this is true, thanks. if not, i'd like to know for sure, thanks. kind of a cheap cop-out. but thats all i got.

why is it so hard for christian families to incorporate cultural and religious meanings into holidays? like christmas but no santa. easter but no bunny. i feel like kids are being cheated out of the fun of the holidays. i mean, jesus being raised from the grave-- amazing. not really a whole lot of FUN. a giant bunny that comes and hides eggs and leaves delicious candies? it stimulates the imagination and gives kids something fun to believe in for at least a few years. is it that hard to convince your kid that we celebrate christmas/easter for jesus and still let santa/the easter bunny bring them presents? some christians/people are just fun haters.

well, thats all i got.