a lover i don't have to love.

when the time comes, i want someone who is madly, deeply, incredibly in love with me.
cause i imagine its way too tiring to have to always be working for someone's affection.

i forgot how hard it is to not have that safety net. to not have the transparency, the familiarity, the constant source of love. to be able to be yourself. i forgot how to rely on myself.

damn.