blessed be.

you want to know what i think?

grow up.

i go through bouts of sadness and empowerment. i feel the almighty pulling me towards it. someday i will give in and all will be right in the universe. until then i will pray for the things i think are best for me and lose all sight of the future.

its just so hard to look beyond what's in front of you and what you already know. its so easy to want what is familiar to you.

here's what i want:
to not be neglected.
to love.
to be loved.
to have peace in my heart and clarity in my mind.
to not be afraid.
to let go of the past.
to live my life day to day with joy and gladness in my heart.
to have a complete heart. not fragments.
You.


thank god for friends who pray and encourage. thank god for family who loves. thank god that life goes on all around you even when yours seems to stop. thank god for forward motion and strength and for hopes and dreams. thank god for his unending capacity to love.

yes, i said it. thank god.