...that you told her that you loved her but you dont.

i am a human being and i have feelings.
i am a person. a real one. and i'm not invincible.

all i ask is that you respect the fact that i am still alive. that i am still hurting. and that at the heart of it is my own insecurity.

you know why?
because i'm a human being. yep, imagine that.

my feelings are not worthless. they may not always be rational but they are still real and they still deserve to be recognized.
my feelings are my own reactions. i know you can't make me feel this way. but you don't make it better either. maybe you can't, because you are only human.

and i understand that you are human. and i am finding it in my heart to respect that.
you could at least do me the same courtesy.

i can't promise it won't be messy. but i will act out of love, not anger. i will try to see where you are coming from. and try to help, not hurt.

but i realize that i can't have any expectations. i can't expect you to know how to deal with this. i can't expect that you know what it feels like to have someone who you love treat you like you don't exist.

if you can't bring yourself to acknowledge me ever again, then i hope you learn from it and never ever do it to anyone ever again. its a horrible thing. and i know it is a defense mechanism. and i know that we are selfish human beings. but god it is so awful.

its like those dreams where you are calling out to someone and they can't hear you. you just want to help and they are oblivious to your hand reaching out to them.

its okay to be scared. its not okay to run away.