woes.

i am overwhelmed.
you are the only person i want to talk to. every day i hope something will change.
my heart is so heavy. getting through the day is like a chore.
i feel like a zombie. like i'm awake but inside i'm dead.
i am begging god to give me some relief but it only gets worse.
and everything else is piling on top and it keeps getting heavier.
i really don't know what to do. i wish there was something i could do. but it looks like i've done enough.
all i can do now is nothing.

i hate being so candid. but it helps to get it out. and there is some small hope that you would see this. and you'd know how incomplete my life is without you.
and you would care.


ugh.